Dilemma

Dilemma always my enemy

But there are always some people to get me out from this situation 

Hence, it also make me become more dependent to others.

Somehow, I still need to be more firm to make decision. This is what my senior teach me. 

But, I still can' take decision to leave or stay in this company. I know the offer is really better than my here, which the more important is I can travel and work in other countries. I no longer need to stay here, and I may get chance to be high position people and get a 'dato' ( it's too far story). 

But I really love my boss, she is treat me very good, and the pay is much more higher and is control by me. I can earn how much as how hardworking I could. And the most important, I really love my colleagues. They are treat me very well. 

Why every times when I was decided to do something, there are some other choices for me to choose and decide again...

There are always put me in a dilemma situation. 

Deep shit...

It's amazing

Something it's just amazing.

Never thought I will found another person who will have the same thinking and same habits with me..

It's kinda weird yet blissful feeling

Every time I don't need to say a single word he can sense it and help me voice out..

It seems a good and bad thing too.

Sometime I don't like something I dare not to say, he will never ask my opinion and say it out! It make me don't know how to react!

Yet, we two are very realistic people..we rather stay lonely also not willing to social with immature friends..

It just because we know we need to grow up and be more mature.

We also the person who can't make decision, it cause we always help each other to make decision..

We lack of chances to talk individually, and he not willing too.. Mayb he feel I can read his mind too..

He don't like to disclose too much of his things..but sometimes he will suddenly out of mind tell me his feeling and what he facing now..

We are not close friend, but we know each other very well...

August a month being up and down...
while started picked up mind and mood to giving up and start a new life..
but things change once again..
life always like this, unexpected things always happen...
however, it's don't know is a up or down decision...
i still have to explore it...wish it is a good one...

down while i expect i can manage to replace my broke phone...
unexpected things happen again...it's really fuck up thing..
the life is really sucks at that moment...
cried out at klcc toilet for being disappointed once again..
it's truth that " no expectation, no disappointment"
fuckin hate this feeling...
it's another sad thing for being ignored while i feel sad...
it's double shot at that moment...
it make me more collapsed...
FML...

it's really a bad year for me...
fuk off 2012...

Seriously i hate 90s' born...

I'm glad that i born at end of 80s'..

90s' people really more childish, aggressive, and like to think what they want..

For guys, they might prefer 90s' girls,

as they are young, soft, and weak enough,

in a way round, they are....

easy to cheat, like to act cute, like to act weak...

Guys always think they are pure and weak, they feel wanna take k and protect them,

to show their MAN!!

However, they don't even think those 90s' are good in ACTING!

they act innocent, act cute, act weak...

They are even clever than those guys, as they might manage to get alot things from the guys...

For those 90s' boy,

they always think they are mature, but actually they are definitely not..

they always want to do or get something out of their capability, as they think they can..

and they always think they are "gangster", nobody cant hurt them..

if someone wanna do tat, they will revenge, and they think they are strong enough to fight the person who one more size bigger than them...Funny enough...

I really can't stand for them!

girl are fake enough,

boys are immature enough..

Even i just 1 years elder than 90s', but we do really have a big gap..

especially those secondary students...they really childish enough..

I'm so tired~
After a long sem with no break, no vacation, and tons of terrible things happened,
I SO EXHAUSTED!!!
Somemore, once finish exam, i get to work from mon to sun...
this gonna continues for a month!!!
every day wakeup at 7am and work till evening..
I NEED A BREAK!!!
this year have only one trip for me...i'm fcking imbalance!!!
i want to travel..i want to leave here badly...
And NOW..
I'M LOST !!!
I don't know what should i work after graduate..
Sales? Management? go Singapore?
and should i look for fulltime job for next semester, as i have to go coll for one day only..
i can't stay at home too frequent...i will easy get emo..=(
i knw it, and i want to avoid it...
but,
if i work, i have no time to do my final project..
Arrr...
dilemma again...
Someone can lent me shoulder? ><
Can i run away to travel first?

Friends always so sweet
they will appear when you need them
they will stay beside you silently without asking any question
they will make you laugh when you feel sad
they will be a good listener when you want to talk
they will find tons of excuses to accompany when they know you feel sad
Thanks for being my friends...
Thanks Jef and Xiang accompany me watch a boring movie today
Thanks Jeffney keep on make my life busy, and find excuse come to accompany me. You are the most adorable one, cz you always accompany me work, eat, play and talk..No Fa in my Segi life, but i do have you..
Thank Kelvin for ur caring too...=.=
Love friends~

Last sat, i had my second time of almost get stole my phone by a stupid thief. luckily i'm sensitive enough to sense it, and get it back, and the thief had run away. == not manage to catch him. Stupid malay thief! I hate to ride bus at nite,it's terribly scary, gt thieves, robber, molester, alot weird people in the bus. somehow, since i have no car, and the taxi even more dangerous, i still have to ride bus, instead of relying on other people to send me back. Always be independent is the best~ No one could help me when i'm in trouble...only me and myself could do it.